Who is this?

It looks like my last post was roughly three years ago and the post before that was super old as well. What can I say? Life and the horrible state of our nation has me busy and demotivated all at once. I’m hesitant to post and share about anything because honestly, I am just tired and oftentimes, disappointed with human beings. I’d like to think that those with opinions that are different from mine would be open to hearing, rather than just listening. Anyhow, we may get to that in a later post. For now, here is a quick overview of life in the last three years. My family and I have a YouTube channel that I am also, very inconsistent at uploading to, however, there is a ton of content. Go ahead and subscribe!

I changed my hair a few times, and by a few, I mean more than three.

Here we have a super lame facial expression with red-brown color. Who is this? Why is she looking at me like this?

After this, I found out I was pregnant and I am the worst pregnant person in the world who refuses to do my hair or wear any makeup because it is awful and I am always tired. As you can see, I have the color in my hair in this picture.

Viola, my hair is black and I look just as happy as I did in the previous picture.

About three months after I had Helena, I was going back to work, time to change the hair again. Insert the word that I can never pronounce, balayage (aka, hand painted, expensive, highlights). Oh and I was convinced to color my eyebrows that looks exactly the same to me, just $20 more expensive then my regular eyebrow color, which was free, thank you genetics.

Beautiful! Lovely! Stunning! That is, before the infamous, post-baby shed began. No photos or evidence of that was documented.

MORE BALAYAGE!!

I balayage’d my hair so hard that I ended up with an ombre and fried hair! I was done with it and by done, I mean, well, just look at the next picture.

I hacked that hair off into a lob (apologies for the picture quality). Well, not me, a trained, over $100 a pop, professional.

After that, i figured that I didn’t ‘lob’ hard enough but couldn’t afford an expensive lob so I went to a cheaper ‘lobber’.

This lob was a bit too dramatic for my life, the back was pretty short. So what did I do? The unthinkable! I said forget this, cut it all off! Thankfully, the shop that I frequent serves wine in the evening and I sure needed it. My hair has never been this short.

Do I like it? Sometimes. I like how quickly I can dry it and style it. Sometimes it will not all fit into a ponytail and that is annoying. I’m not sure how I feel about it. I’ve never had hair this short and I need it to ‘grow’ on me. I am growing it back out from this length and will not be cutting it for at least one year. My stylist thinks we will ‘trim’ it in September but she doesn’t know me that well.

Other life things that happened, Oh yea, the baby. 🙂 She is closer to two than a baby but her she is! She LOVES to put my shirts on like they are dresses.

We got a new puppy! Joshua named him Kobe and he is… well, a puppy.

He is great with the kids and they love him. I love him too, I just wish he was 5 years older and a bit more chill.

Joshua is still the funniest and most energetic kid that I know. He loves with his entire heart and plays with every ounce of energy he has.

We saw a couple of movies this year, “Murder on the Orient Express” and “Black Panther”. Can I just say, Black Panther was AMAZING!!!!!

My husband is still, and will always be, very attractive.

I broke my shoe as soon as I got to work one morning, not that you care but, hey that’s part of my life too.

There you have it. I don’t know why I decided that my hair changes would be the highlight of the last few years but hey, it is the one thing that I consistently do for myself. Maybe I will post regularly again, maybe I won’t. We will just have to see what happens. I have received notification of new followers and want you to know that I see you and appreciate you!

I’m back! True Life Story Plus Engagement Pictures

Man, I have been absent for quite sometime. It turns out that a week off from blogging really meant a month. My life has been anything but a routine lately. I have had more to do in the last month than I have had to do in the last 4 years of my life. Everything is changing and it is happening pretty quickly. I am excited and terrified all at the same time. I am very optimistic about the future and I know that everything I am investing in my life will be beneficial.

In short, I have been working on my own personal relationship with the Lord, while working on being engaged and planning a wedding. If you have read my blog since the beginning you have seen many posts that are pretty negative and seem like I have no idea what I am even doing in life. I still don’t really have everything together. I have realized that I can’t do this life thing on my own. I can’t get through the tough times and the worry that I face on a pretty consistent basis without faith. For a long time I was focused. I knew where I was going and my faith was very important to me. It never really stopped being important, it just became secondary. My personal wants and needs were first. It was all about me.

I have since been brought back to the realization that I need Christ in my life. I have to have him to be alright. Without that, I am really nothing. Not one person in this world can make me feel like no matter what happens; everything will be alright. I will still encounter hard times but knowing that my time on this earth is temporary and when that passes away I will be in a better place is really all the promise that I need.

I know what some of you may be thinking…. Christians are out of touch, judgmental, and think they know everything. It is a horrible reputation that I hate exists. Let me be the first to tell you, I am not perfect and will never be. I expect perfection from no one and neither does God. We are saved by grace and therefore no amount of actions or works that we do will ever make any of us better than the other.

This doesn’t mean that I will always talk about my faith and that is the only thing that exists in the world. It is very important to me and I will talk about it as well. I still plan to post about fitness, beauty products, my engagement, my little adorable son, and even laugh at Kanye from time to time.

The most beautiful thing about being saved is knowing that there isn’t anything I can do to ever lose the love that Jesus has for me. Even if today my fiancé decided that he didn’t want to be with me any longer because of my unrealistic ideas and unpredictable mood swings, I know that I will be alright because I have Jesus.

I hope you will stick around. I hope we can be friends still. I’m still a sinner and will definitely make mistakes because perfection isn’t possible. I’m human. That even means that I will probably post about being sad sometimes. I still have periods so we all know I am going to cry at least one whole week out of the month.

On another note… here are some of our engagement pictures. I hope you enjoy them. How have you guys been doing? I sure miss you!